Beautiful disaster

Its been a day. A whole day.... And I feel more alone than anything. I miss her. I feel so helpless. I wish I could just call her but shes not there. I wish I could hear her ramble on about something... but I can't. I go to the kelly clarkson concert and It was like this song was meant for us. it was like every song was meant for us at some point in our relationship. For everything we went through, Kelly Clarkson sings a song about it... And I went to the concert. I almost cried several times. Then the next day... I went to Busch with Chris and Angie... They made me miss her romatically so badly. They were so loving with each other and he told her he loved her she looked at him and I just wish I could be back in her arms agian when things were right between us.

I hate the way nina treats me. I hate the way we are nothing.


Work is good.
























my life is so boring.
-Heathie